My High Speed Mind.

Human mind

Just for a few seconds, my mind went into overdrive this morning.

It is normally a de-cluttered one but an unusual occurrence speeded up the imagination process and gave me palpitation and an almost-there panic attack.

I was in the kitchen washing up after tea and my cellphone was on the dining table. I heard it ringing but, by the time I could wash up and come to it, it stopped ringing and I saw that I had received a missed call from Ranjan. That is when the gear shifting process started. I went into the first and called back. It took forever to get a disconnect signal and I went into second. I called again and the same thing happened and I went into third and fourth when I could not get through. Finally I went into overdrive when I heard Ranjan’s voice as though it was coming from some deep abyss.

For those who may not know, he and Manjiree are late night personalities and also late risers. This call was at 7.15 AM, a time that I have never known them to wake up at. They are currently vacationing in the Southern parts of our country and have had to alter their itinerary due to unseasonal heavy rains and bad visibility.

My imagination was running riot. I was imagining all kinds of dire scenarios and the whole telephone experience was mostly responsible.

Finally I was able to hear Ranjan clearly and he said that he had just called to inform me of his latest plan and that he would call again later in the day after reaching their destination. He assured me that visibility was good and the weather was clear and bright.

It still took me a few minutes to come back to normal. I need to work more on my detachment. This experience has just shown me that my equanimity is just on the surface.

15 thoughts on “My High Speed Mind.”

  1. “Equanimity”? Sure. Most desirable trait. Leaves one’s senses when alarm bells start ringing – more often than not for good reason.

    Your story reminds me of my earliest childhood when arrival of a telegram excited and usually brought nothing but bad news. Just as the phone ringing at an unearthly and unexpected hour does now.

    May you not be rattled again any time soon,
    Ursula recently posted..Band Aid

    1. Oh, I was again yesterday when their flight back was delayed and there was no way to communicate with them. Anyway, after about half an hour of tension, Ranjan called to say that the plane had touched down!

  2. your experience was out of pure love!
    doubt that any measure of equanimity could ever stop or soothe that adrenalin that rushes through us when we get a phone call in the night… or when our loved ones are out of our routine and in the travelling mode…
    i think it’s natural. so long as we come back to calm. and you’re one of the calmest people i know!
    tammy j recently posted..who me? tea?

  3. Ramana, don’t let your horses run wild ! I know all of us do that where our children are concerned. But please read this lovely piece. Applies in all walks of life.

    Once, a fellow was speeding down a country road late at night and bang! Went a Tyre. He got out and looked and realized he had no jack. Then he said to himself. Well, I’ll just walk down to the nearest farmhouse and borrow a jack! He saw a light in a distance and said, Well, I am in luck: the farmer’ awake. I’ll just knock on the door and say I’m in trouble; would you please lend me a jack? And he’ll say, why, of course-but bring it back.
    He walked on a little farther and the light went out so he said to himself, ‘now he’s gone to bed and he’ll be annoyed because I am bothering him-so he’ll probable want some money for his jack. And I’ll say, all right, it isn’t very neighbourly- but I’ll give you ten cents’. And he’ll say, ‘do you think you can get me out the bed in the middle of the night and then offer me ten cents? Give me 50 cents or get yourself a jack somewhere else. By this time the fellow had worked himself to lather. He turned into the gate and muttered, fifty cents! Alright, I’ll give you 50 cents. But no more! A poor devil has an accident and all he needs is a jack. You probably won’t let me have one no matter what I give you. That’s the kind of chap you are.
    Which brought him up to the door and he knocked-loudly, angrily. The farmer stuck his head out his head out of the window above the door and shouted down ‘who’s there?’ ’ what do you want?’ The fellow stopped pounding on the door and yelled up, ‘you and your damn jack! You know what you can do with it!
    After a short laugh, I was totally nodding my head thinking ‘Yes, I do that all the times’. Yell or demand attention from friends simply because I have imagined that they are not interested talking to me any more. Do nasty things to people just because I have imagined that they were conspiring against me. I am sure this could have led to wars in earlier time.
    Moral of the story- Whenever your brain runs too much, hold your horses and remember to tell yourself ‘WANT TO BORROW A JACK?’


  4. If you ever get a phone call like that again you will no doubt not panic. And under the circumstances you regained your composure, presence of mind, soon enough. It was a learning experience. But why are you aiming for detachment? I think caring about people is a good thing.
    Cheerful Monk recently posted..Julia Child

  5. When you get that one down pat, let me know how you did it. There are times when all of the meditation and calming tactics i know don’t work for me – and they almost all have to do with runaway imagination concerns about my children or grandchildren.
    Mother recently posted..To My Little Sister

  6. 1. You are far more de-cluttered
    2. Your equanimity is not at surface

    my 2 cents… no need to worry.
    Just “imagine” now if you think you are not the above two… where on this dimensions of the above two I shall fall? +infinite 🙂 😀

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